Stagnation, sickness and other things I feel like talking about

So my life has been full of stagnation, sickness and lots of other random crap over the last month. I will highlight in list form:

I kind of sort of not really have been writing. Haven't felt too inspired lately.

I acquired some bacteria in my system that was making it's way up to my kidneys that caused me to go to the hospital for two days. It was annoying. But now I am feeling better.

I've been really lazy.

This is 40 was a pretty good movie. Oblivion was "meh".

I'm still obsessed with Benedict Cumberbatch. And Star Trek into Darkness comes out on Wednesday. And I am excited.

I am tired. More often than not.

I am uninspired.

So, stuff has been happening, but I've been really lazy. This crappy economy has really left me jaded, and my indifference and laziness towards it and everything else has motivated me to do absolutely nothing. I can't tell if this is just a pause in my life or just me really wanting to abandon everything and go live on the beach as a bum for the rest of my days.

Is this normal?

Hmmm. I don't know. I want to do stuff, but I can't seem to find a way to do it.

Meditating is really boring. And I haven't gotten any answers from it. Am I supposed to? I thought so... but still. Nothing.

I'm just here for now. I'm hoping that something exciting will happen or that I'll just get it together and move forward, but I don't know. I guess time will tell.

Sorry to be so boring.

PS - If you want to leave me a message on my blog, you have to do it through Open ID. Just type any name and email address in there. I'll still get it. You have to leave me a message this way (or use your Google account), b/c I really don't like spam in my Inbox.

Here's a pic of Benedict. That's all I got for now.

For Rachel Kling

Somehow or another, your comments were awaiting moderation in my Blogger account, and I didn't find out until now! I didn't realize that ANYONE was reading my crazy ramblings other than my close buddies from Barnes and Noble.

Thanks so much for the comments... and thanks for being a fellow Benedict Cumberbatch lover. My friends don't understand why I like him so much. But honestly, after watching Sherlock and some interviews he's given over the years, I'm totally smitten with him. He's a great actor, and seems like an all around good guy.

I couldn't find your email address, but please send me a message! I would love to correspond with you if you like. My email address is ralee78@gmail.com.

And of course, I couldn't end this post without a lovely picture of my current obsession.

He's so cute.

Rrrrr

This man is ruining my life. Seriously.

I need to stop thinking about him and all of his wonderfulness. Oh man. Someone help me.

I think I'll be ok after Star Trek into Darkness comes out. Fingers crossed.

The last month or so has been a little rough, but it's over. Thank goodness. Work drama totally rules my life. You would think if I didn't like to cause so much of it, then I would be ok. But alas, that's not how I roll.

Anyhoo, I finally started getting some feedback from the volunteer company that I signed up to write for (after I practically fussed at them for ignoring my awesomeness). I've been a little lazy and haven't done the required reading yet, so I need to hop on that.

I think that the stagnation in my life is starting to end and things are starting to move along now. I lost a dress size, I'm going to be writing in the evenings, and hopefully I'll pick up my diet and exercise program again. The era of laziness is over. Time to start moving again.

That means less TV, less Goldeneye (video games) and more work. Oh boy.

I think I'm a Writer?

So I have been working on this novel.... I figured since that I'm not getting paid to write, that I might as well write in my spare time instead of pine over Benedict Cumberbatch. I mean, he's cute and all... but I'm never going to meet him, so I might as well spend my nights trying to write something. So here it is.

I wanted to write something that was me... my whole goal for writing this story was to take some inane dialogue and put it into a story with a plot.

Here's a sample of my writing. It's just a clip of a story that I'm writing...

             After checking my email, my mind turned back towards the case of the wealthy real estate agent and his mistress. I was stumped on how I was going to solve this mysterious case. No footprints leading out of the door, no traces of anyone else’s DNA except for the victims… man, solving this case was going to be some work.

            Just then, the phone rang. “Alex Summers, PI, how may she help you?” Joey said after when he answered the phone. “Just a minute, honey.” He handed the phone over to me. “It’s Dan.”

            “Crap!” I said. “Hello?”

            “You owe me three drinks, Alex.”

            “Seriously Dan… is this why you are calling? You know I’m busy.”

            “Yes… busy doing nothing. I know that business has been slow, love. Hell, I’m the person who gives you almost all of your cases. And I know that you are still stumped on your wealthy real estate broker case. You’ve reached a bit of a dead end there, yes?” he said in his deep British accent.

            “Yes,” I grumbled back to him.

            “Well, good. Perhaps we could talk about it over 3 pints later on in the week at Cassidy’s, yeah? I may be able to get you some more old files on the case.”

            “Let me check my schedule.”

            “Oh please,” he scoffed.

            “Fine. How about Friday night at 9pm? I could stand to get wasted after this slow week.”

            “It’s a date then.”

            “It’s not a date.”

            “Alex… you are so keen for me… I know it must hurt for you not to be my girl.”

            “Please. I’d take a kick to the crotch any day of the week before I’d be your girl.”

            “Oh darling… you know how to turn a bloke on, now don’t you?”

            “I gotta go, Dan.”

            “Alright… cheers.”

            I hung up the phone. Joey and Missy glared at me with smirks on their face.

            “Oh shut up,” I said, as I fought back a smile.

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Thoughts? If anyone out there is reading this... yeah.

Top 5 Hollywood Guys

My top 5 Hollywood obsessions at the moment:

1) Justin Timberlake... drool... he can sing to me any day of the week.

 

 2) Jesse Williams... double drool... he's the only reason I still watch Grey's Anatomy.

 

 3) Benedict Cumberbatch... I want to have his children...

 

 4) Will Smith... if I had to pick a celebrity to marry... it would be him. Cumberbatch comes a close second.

 

5) Idris Elba... the man is fine. Period. I love his show Luther!

I think I need a boyfriend. Stat.